8:05 a.m. - 2007-11-01
Thea is gone
My heart hurts. I just want my doggie back, wagging her tail in delight of seeing me, kissing my face. She used to do this thing where if you stared at her, nose to nose, she'd stare you down and when you lost your focus she'd give you a quick kiss. She was with me for 13 years, a long time to have a dog and then suddenly be without one. They give such unconditional love, are always happy to see you. Thea would never leave my side when I was home. I'm not sure I can be without a dog for long. They fill up a place inside me. My friend, Carol (a fellow massage therapist), has this incredibly cute Jack Russel who is all brown and she just had five puppies a month ago. Coordination? The father is Carol's, too, and both parents are just mushy. Not yippee at all. There's this boy puppie who has stolen a bit of my heart. But, hubby doesn't think it's a good idea to get him right now since we will be moving in April, and our friend Eric really can't have animals in his house due to lung issues he's been having. This makes me sad. Perhaps things are just not conducive to another dog right now. Plus I'm in a funk being one day beyond Thea's passing. It hurts a lot right now, but with each day it will get better. Hopefully.
